I was reminded by my friend Jordan on October 15th that it was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness day/month. So even though I’ve shared here before about miscarrying our first baby, I thought I could tell it again. Along with links that I hope can help someone in the thick of it all not feel so isolated.
I will never forget the way I sobbed when I found out I had a miscarriage in early 2012. The doctor telling me what I had already suspected but it felt like daggers hearing it. My uncontrollable tears. The grief was overwhelming for me. I had only known I was pregnant for a week! But it had been the happiest week. I was so excited to become a mother. Seeing just how elated JB was had meant more than I could have imagined. I realize it was only a week; so I pray for and truly can’t begin to fathom those that carry longer, feel kicks, hiccups… My heart is with them. I still think of our baby. It can be heart wrenching. I want to know them, and I do take comfort in knowing I’ll meet them one day.
I remember feeling SO alone then. I didn’t tell many people at first. But as soon as I did – many told me they had one too, their mother did, their friend, or to read this post … and it helped. As much as I hate that anyone has to go through this at all, I was grateful for their support. How I wish every woman longing for a baby, resulted in a healthy baby! Though I guess I’d have dozens by now … (: Others brave stories gave me courage to share my own. To hopefully, help someone else along the way.
I wanted to also share a few friends stories that have meant so much to many, including me …
Jessica, Jordan, Ali, Victoria, and Grace
21 celebrities who opened up about their miscarriages.
Praying for all of you experiencing loss and/or longing <3 Especially during this month of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness.
