As a first time mom I wondered all the time if I am doing it right.  I felt really insecure.  I still have moments that can sometimes turn into days where I’m pretty sure I’m doing it all wrong. The human condition?  or just mine?  I don’t know if it ever will be all gone, no matter how many children I have.  But it has lessened since Wes has come into my life.  It can feel like everyone knows something I don’t at times.  But it helps to remember, that to some degree, we are all just winging it.  Doing the best we can.  So if it ever seems like I know what I’m talking about, please know it’s just what has worked for us lately.  Tomorrow it could be another story and my kids can both throw one heck of a learning curve ball at any time.  I mostly just try to love them so much in hopes they will feel that for the rest of their lives.  Like my parents did.  The no matter what kind of love, the best kind.  Love that means discipline, cuddles, hard no’s, yesses, kisses, and paying attention.  I ask often – WWND – (what would nan do- my mother) – try to use some common sense, and try to not obsess over my decisions, and try my damnedest to live in the moment with them.  I pray the same prayer every night before I go to bed.  I pray that I raise kind men that grow to love and find purpose in Him.  I pray He covers Grace all over my multitude of parenting mistakes made that day.  It is in those quiet moments I find the most clarity and confidence in motherhood.  I realize He gave me my most precious gifts, He thought I was up for the task of raising these two sweet boys.  Though I may be insecure about this, that, or the other in parenting; I know I’m His choice for these boys.   I find a lot of comfort in knowing that.  I hope you do too.  You are His choice for His child.  You are doing great.