{their swim trunks // tucks shirt }

Motherhood is constantly taking me by surprise.  Showing me layers of who I am or who I’m meant to be.  For one, I would never think I was going to be the disciplinarian in the house, but I am.  Maybe that’s the role you have to take on if you’re home with them all day.  But I’m proud of that one, as I didn’t know I had it in me!  It also surprises me how love grows when another is born.  You think you couldn’t possibly love someone as much as you love your first born, because that’s all you know -it’s this intense, all consuming love.  But then you are holding your newborn baby and immediately you love them with that same fierce, unconditional love.  It’s like they were always there, in your heart.  It also surprises me how different they are.  I thought they’d be so similar, since they are both boys – but everything else is different.   I’m surprised how empowering it can all feel when I’m sure it looks like a mundane little life.  But when you nurse one baby all day and night, tend to their every need, still do playdates and playgrounds with the other, get through bedtimes, cook dinners, laundry – at the end of the day I may be exhausted but I am also kinda wanting to high five myself most days too.  If that makes any sense- maybe I have low standards for life these days, but I’m good with those standards.  (: … I’m sure there will be a million more surprises to come.  

ps: this is my current favorite song … this bit gets me misty every time.  

“Raise em up trophy high, raise em up to the sky, raise em up show everybody that newborn smile raise em up tall and strong, raise em up right from wrong,

 raise em up so damn high they can hear God singing along”

#imacheeseball 

pps: the only way I got through this beach morning- was that Wesley was asleep in the solly wrap 99% of the time, I took zero toys, tuck chased birds and we chased him the whole time.